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"Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours"

I'd been looking for a school book for my theory class and I decided to look in this random box, which is how it always seems to be. I think I have more junk than any one person I know. Anyways, despite the the metaphorical state that my belongings like to define me as the mess I am...in the pursuit of finding my book I came across a bag. A simple plastic grocery bag, in that I found some intimates, a contact case, and an album of photos in which on the binding was a faded sharpie phrase that said "I Love Jenna"....my photos and in the back lie the pictures of Steven Brewster and I. This is the boy that I swear change my whole being within a two month period.I guess I just can't comprehend how something that only lasted 2 months could have such impact of my life. Last night Mike confined in me about Steff...as I told him I told you so and left it at that I explained that she is his Steven looking back I realize looking at Steven is like looking at myself in the mirror and having an opportunity to see myself face to face as a male. You fall for someone so much like you that after awhile you can only stay compatible for a moment...that moment in time is what changes everything. I love Steven Brewster and if for any reason I felt I had the right to tell Mike to walk away I'd a be a hypocrite. Because as much as I disagree I would never tell my best friend to not follow his heart for things only last for a moment and in that moment you feel COMPLETE. I'd thank Steven today for everything despite what really happened if today he said try again I'd contemplate the idea, healthy or not..can't help what you feel.