It's definitely been a rough past few months, called off a wedding, moved a few different jobs, cut off friends, been dating ...
I can't begin to say how horrible and great at the same time it's all been. I'm struggling right now with some the hardest decisions I've ever had to make.
I am getting to the point is it worth it to continue being my age and do the drinking, the partying the smoking weed?
I have someone in my life that I can genuinely see a future with that I am willing to invest in and the hardest part is his own demons with using.
I've learned so much since I was 17 and truly I learn more each year, some lessons I'm not grateful enough for. Is love based on purely emotion or sometimes is that not enough to trudge through? I think that I have more faith in God than I have ever before. It may sound cheesy, but how else do people get through the ruts? I'm not saying that you have to believe in a god I pass no judgement on that..believing in something stronger definitely helps me feel like there is a brighter end of the tunnel even if I cant always see it.
I struggle myself with not smoking ganja and drinking to release myself from the down feeling, but that's how it all starts. I have been able to see as of late how badly a family of my own and letting go of those people who are ungrateful for your friendship is becoming so huge in my life. Each night I'm thankful for the day at a time that I have with the ones I love and I am hoping that with my decisions that I will only progress in happiness. Being in love can be the most trying things for any one person. I think it will be nothing, but worth it. You can't help, but do anything else and just love.